my thoughts on the first few pages I've read, I think that he may have been feeling incredible guilt because due to the fact of not going to visit with his mother more often and probably that's also why he didn't want to see his mother for the last time before the casket was sealed. the way that anybody would mourn over the death of their mother is unknown so i believe that the way that he stayed to himself and just taking in his scenery around him doesn't seem out of the ordinary because as he watched the sky and smelled the air around him i would like to think that his mother is still within his thoughts.but i still am stuck at the fact of why wouldn't he want to see his mother before her casket was sealed?